Saturday 6 April 2013

I am missing you

I just suddenly felt sad and thought about you. I was looking for your photo when you had your first communion, and tears suddenly fell on my face. I know there will be days like this for the rest of my life. The pain, although becomes lighter with time, it doesn't go away. I don't think it ever will. Looking at your photos makes me realize how special you were. You were a great loss. I will tell you that over and over again. 

We know that you're happy where you are now. In fact, I dreamt about you the other night and there you were looking very happy. You were inside a car with Mama and Ading Cxyrelle. You smiled at me when you passed by. And then I saw you somewhere, I am not sure but maybe it was inside a room. I asked you how you were and you said you were very much okay with a huge smile. Your skin was so vibrant. You looked really happy.

You know sometimes, no matter how much you have made us feel that you're okay, we still feel the pain. That's normal anak because we miss you so so much. It's really not the same without you.

Please know that we love you so much anak. You may have been gone for over a year now, but it doesn't matter for you will live in our hearts forever. 


Mommy Tintin



Monday 1 April 2013

Ading hums Hallelujah again

Remember last Easter when Ading Linus first sung the Easter song at our church? I thought that he won't do it again because he got scared the last time. But no, he did it again! I am so proud of Ading Linus. I'm sure you are prouder than we all are. It's just a shame that you were not here to support him physically, but I know you were watching him from heaven.

I miss you so much baby. It's two years since the last time I saw you. Ha, time has flown so fast.

Mommy loves you so very much.


Mommy Tintin


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