Probably your last trip to Jollibee

Almost a month before you left and I am trying to remember the things that you did on your last few days with us as much I can. Surprisingly enough, there are not a lot of photos on Mama's facebook page. But there was this one time when you all went to Olongapo. Mama told me that it was after Christmas. I know you really didn't like Jollibee that much. You would rather eat in Chow King. And when you were younger you developed a skin allergy which prohibited you from eating chicken. This is one of the reasons why you didn't want to eat in Jollibee anymore. But growing up you were really a responsible young lad. You didn't eat chicken and eggs for a while, but then they realized that perhaps the chicken skin might be the one causing you the allergy so you started eating chicken again.

So, here's your last memory in Jollibee. 

The last photo was taken when you were apparently looking for Inang. You were worried because she might get lost. 

You are so handsome anak. It's so sayang talaga. I am missing you as usual. The past four days have been very busy for me, but I never stop thinking about you. I love you so much.

Mommy Titin

Their visit to Aga

Before Christmas, Mama and your Adings visited Aga. It looks like they had a lot of fun. I am very happy that they all managed to keep in touch especially now that you're no longer here and Aga has transferred to another school. I'm sure you're happy about that too.

They definitely miss you and I know you miss them too.

I miss and love you.

By the way, how's your Christmas up there?

Mommy Tintin

Our first Christmas without you

I haven't properly spoken to our family yet because the first time I called, Mama and your Adings were sleeping and Inang was still at the church. And then when I called again Mama was at Tito JL's house. Your Ading's didn't want to wake up, unlike before when you all went next door for the noche buena. I will call again a bit later. I'm sure they will be awake by then. As for me, I am having the Christmas blues. I have just shed some tears because I was chatting with one of my friends in the US and we talked about you. And then I was looking at your Christmas photos last year, which happened to be your last Christmas with us.

You know what? I noticed that in your last photos in December 2011, you were always smiling. Quite unusual I thought because you very rarely smiled at the camera. And why the formal photo op with Mama Es, Daddy, Ninang Mary and Tito JL? I don't think you've done that before. Your photos were normally candid shots. But anyway, I just want to share your last Christmas photos:

See what I mean? You have that smirk on your face. And can I just say that you are wearing your favourite shirt again.

Well baby, greet Papa Jesus Happy Birthday for me okay? Have a Happy Christmas anak ko. I love and miss you so much.

Mommy Tintin

Our Christmas Card especially for you

Hi anak, I've just made a christmas card for you and I hope you will like it.

This is it for now as I am getting very lonely. Please remember that we love you so very much. Happy Christmas baby.

Mommy Tintin

End of the world

Nostradamus predicted that yesterday was meant to be the end of the world. I am telling you this now because I remember about the same time last year you were apparently telling Inang and Mama that 2012 is going to be the end of the world. You said that the signs would be water, that there will be a lot of flooding that was going to happen. Ha, you probably read this in one of your researches. I know you loved reading on the internet.

And yes, have you heard of "Gangnam Style"? I don't know why people have associated this with the end of the world, but it's obvious that some people took this seriously. Probably because Nostradamus apparently described the end of the world as this:

"From the calm morning, the end will come ... When of the dancing horse the number of circles will be 9."

So, there you go. I'm sure if you were here you would have loved watching the video on you tube. I remember you loved watching funny videos.  Just in case you missed this one, here it is:

And yeah, it has reached 1 billion hits! Ah you're really missed. I can imagine you and Ading Linus watching this on you tube and laughing your heads off. I can hear your laugh right now. Oh how I miss hearing you laugh. I love you okay? Please never forget that. Whatever happens, you will always be in my heart. 

Mommy Tintin

Ading's school play

So, Ading Linus played Angel Gabriel at their school's Christmas play. I'm sure you are so proud of him up there. Oh, have you met angel Gabriel? Well, if you see him better tell him that your little brother played him at their school play and Ading made a handsome Gabriel, huh!  I grabbed Ading's photos from Kuya CK just to show you:

Well, Ading doesn't seem to be that shy anymore. I know when he was in nursery he was very active then he became shy. And now look,  Ading is amazing! 

Hayyy, I wish you were there to see it personally. But anyway, I'm sure you saw it somehow.

4 days before Christmas and I am missing you loads. I love you Pochongchong!

Mommy Tintin

Eulogy

I have lost a few loved ones before but I really never gave a eulogy. But it was different when you left. I didn't even hesitate. I actually told Tito Roman that whatever happened, I would have to talk about you and there was only one thing that I wanted people to know - that you were an exceptional and inspirational kid! For the first time in my life, I was not shy in front of more than a hundred people. My eagerness to let people know about you took over my stage fright. Of course, I cried but I was so proud of you at that moment and I knew that that was my biggest chance to brag about "the son any parent would wish to have". I told them facts about you that none of your friends probably knew. There were tears and there wear laughters too. Perhaps, any parent who lost a child would want to take that last moment to say all the wonderful things that they have to say about their lost child. While some would like their eulogy to be simple, and straight forward, I wanted mine to be as long as possible. I didn't want to miss any of your milestones.

I am telling you about this now because I read one mother's eulogy and as simple as it may be, it is so touching:

"The sky is crying, and the flags are at half-mast. It is a sad, sad day. But it is also your day, Noah, my little man. I will miss your forceful and purposeful little steps stomping through our house. I will miss your perpetual smile, the twinkle in your dark blue eyes, framed by eyelashes that would be the envy of any lady in this room.

Most of all, I will miss your visions of your future. You wanted to be a doctor, a soldier, a taco factory manager. It was your favorite food, and no doubt you wanted to ensure that the world kept producing tacos.

You were a little boy whose life force had all the gravitational pull of a celestial body. You were light and love, mischief and pranks. You adored your family with every fiber of your 6-year-old being. We are all of us elevated in our humanity by having known you. A little maverick, who didn't always want to do his schoolwork or clean up his toys, when practicing his ninja moves or Super Mario on the Wii seemed far more important.

Noah, you will not pass through this way again. I can only believe that you were planted on Earth to bloom in heaven. Take flight, my boy. Soar. You now have the wings you always wanted. Go to that peaceful valley that we will all one day come to know. I will join you someday. Not today. I still have lots of mommy love to give to Danielle, Michael, Sophia and Arielle.

Until then, your melody will linger in our hearts forever. Momma loves you, little man."

Victoria Pozner (mother to 6-year old Noah)

Mommy is proud of you forever. I miss you so much. Love lots beautiful angel Keith.

Mommy Tintin