I Am Missing You

I was looking at Mama's profile picture on facebook during my lunch break and it felt like you have never left us. Although you were not smiling on that photo, your face was beautiful. I suddenly realized that the next time I go home, I will no longer be able to pinch your cheeks and kiss your lips, sit you on my lap and hug you. I will no longer hear your heavy footsteps. I will no longer hear your crunchy laugh. I will no longer see your little firm bottom. I will no longer be able to tease you. I will no longer be able to.....ah, too much no longer.

I still don't really know why God has to take you too soon. If only I have known, I would have begged him to leave you with us for a little bit longer, just a bit longer. I am sure He witnessed how much we loved you and cared for you. And I am sure he knew that we would have done the same. In fact, if only He has given us another chance, we would have done more just to keep you. Can you please ask God if He can tell us why He has taken you away from us without warning? We would really love to know. Then we will be able to fully move on. If only......

Anyway, a song popped in my head when I was whispering "I miss you" to you. The song has swear words in it unfortunately, but I will delete them for you because I know you don't want saying or hearing them.

I'LL BE MISSING YOU

by Puff Daddy

Every day I wake up

I hope I'm dreaming

I can't belive this ___

Can't belive you ain't here

Sometimes it's just hard for a ___ to wake up

It's hard to just keep going

It's like I feel empty inside without you being here

I would do anything man, to bring you back

I'd give all this ____, the whole knot

(I saw your son photo today

He look just like you You look like an angel you know

You was were the greatest

I miss you big Keith

Can't wait till that day, when I see your face again

I can't wait till that day, when I see your face again.

This right here (tell me why)

Goes out, to everyone, that has lost someone

That they truly loved (cmon, check it out)

Seems like yesterday we used to rock the show

I laced the track, you locked the flow

So far from hanging on the block for dough

Notorious, they got to know that

Life ain't always what it seem to be

Words can't express what you mean to me

Even though you're gone, we're still a team

Through your family Adings, I'll fulfill your dream (that's right)

In the future, Can't wait to see

If you open up the gates for me

Reminisce some time, the night they took my friend son

Try to black it out, but it plays again

When it's real, feelings hard to conceal

Can't imagine all the pain I feel

Give anything to hear half of your breath

I know you still living your life, after death

Every step I take, every move I make

Every single day, everytime I pray

I'll be missing you

Thinking of the day, when you went away

What a life to take, what a bond to break

I'll be missing you

It's kinda hard with you not around

Know you in heaven smiling down

Watching us while w epray for you

Every day we pray for you

Till the day we meet again

In my heart is where I keep you friend son

Memories give me the strength I need to proceed

Strength I need to believe

My thoughts big Keith I just can't define

Wish I could turn back the hands of time

Us in the 6, shop for new clothes and kicks

You and me taking flicks

Making hits, stages they receive you on

I still can't belive you're gone.....

I am thinking that maybe Tito JL will like this song. I will post it on his wall tonight when I get home. The lyrics is exactly how I am feeling. This song was written by Puff Daddy for his friend who got killed. I first heard this song a long time ago but I only realized how good it is now that I am missing you.

All I wanted to say really is I miss you so so much. I love you more than words can say.

Mommy Tintin