In Search of that Purpose- Your Friends

When you left, I was so heart broken. I felt like a piece of me left with you. There was no one or anything that could comfort me. All I wanted was to find out why God had to take you away from all of us, when you almost had everything - good manners, good looks, talent, love for God and all that He created, etc. You had a bright future ahead of you. I had big plans for you. I was just waiting for the right time. But when would have been the right time? You left even before I could show you the world. And so my question remains, "why?".

Most people have told me that there is a purpose on why God took you so early. Somehow I do believe in that. But I really want to find out what the purpose is. I'm pretty sure it's for the good of those you have left behind, but what is it? It's almost three months since you left, and from that time on I have been searching for that purpose. 

But recently, I have noticed that God is slowly working on telling me what that purpose is. I think He is using some of your friends to show me one of reasons why He has taken you away from us. I mean, if you were with us, would have I met your friends and develop a relationship with them? Would I be chatting with them like I have known them forever? I don't know, but probably not. Before you left, I've  only met two of your friends -your best friend Aga and Megan. I have gone home a few times but I never saw any of your classmates. The first time I met them was at your wake. I would like to think that this is one of God's purposes - for me to meet your friends and get to know them better. And through them, perhaps I will see more of you. Although I know that they will never be you. Because you were different. You were and will always be special.

I thought of this only because I have been an "agony aunt" to one of your friends lately. I am really flattered that one of them trusts me enough to open up and seek advice from me. I am not sure if you would have done the same though, because you were really shy. But I know that you tell Mama some of your secrets. See, these are the things that I never experienced with you. You never told me about your crushes. I remember you asking Mama if it was bad to have a crush on someone, but that was it. It is just a shame because we will never see you pursue your crush, fall in love and get heart broken. 

While I was chatting to your friend, I was like, "this would have been Keith asking me advice on matters of the heart". I may not have given you advice on love and all that jazz when you were here, but at least I am still able to do that with one of your friends. Perhaps one of God's purpose of taking you is for me to realize my own purpose in life- one of them is to share my wisdom to others (through you). I think my being a mother to an 11 year old did not end when you left. Through your friend (s), I continue to be a mother to soon to be teenager(s). And through them, your memory lives on.


I miss you so much baby. I love you.


Mommy Tintin