Yesterday I received a text from my friend saying that her niece is currently in the hospital with Dengue Fever. Anak, I am crying as I write to you because this thing reminds me of what happened to you. According to my friend, her niece has been having an on and off fever and a headache - the same symptoms that you had. Then she told me that her niece's platelets were going down. I told her to tell the doctors and the nurses to monitor the platelet closely and check for any signs of bleeding and then transfuse the child straight away. I told her to make sure they have bloods and platelets ready - one thing that you didn't have. I remember Mama telling me that Tatang and Tito Joseph had to travel 38.9 miles and back to buy the blood that you needed. You have no idea how frustrated I was when I learned about this. Even if we had the money, there was no blood readily available. And although there is a provincial hospital next to the private hospital you were in, there is no blood bank. If there was one thing that infuriated me during your stay at the hospital, that would be it. What if the only thing that can save a person's life is blood? That means that the person has to wait for almost half a day to receive it? It's just so frustrating. You know what anak, if I had the money, I would put up a blood bank in public hospitals like Iba and San Marcelino. At least they are more accessible. That's a good idea right? If only I had loads of money.
Ahhh, I really don't want to go back to those 3 days when I was worried sick about you being in the hospital. I was calling Mama every hour just to make sure you were alright. I was asking her about your treatment and whatever the doctors have been doing to you. I couldn't sleep, I couldn't eat. I was so lucky because I was off all the time that you were in the hospital, so I was able to keep track on what was happening to you. I was even giving instructions to Mama on what the doctors should be doing to you. It's really hard anak when a mother is away from her sick child. I felt so helpless at that time. I wanted to be there for you but I couldn't. Until now, it breaks my heart to remember those times when I know you needed me the most but I was not there for you. Please forgive me.
Anak, please help Ate Hazel to get better. Tell Papa Jesus to keep her safe. I know exactly how her mother must be feeling right now. My friend also told me that she can't concentrate at work because she's thinking about her and is so worried about her all the time. Ate Hazel has been transfused with platelets, so I hope she will be better soon. I am not going to hold my breath though, because you also received blood and platelets but He still took you away. But I hope and pray that this will not happen to any child again. Please, please anak watch over Ate. Thank you.
I love you so much baby. I miss you all the time. Big hug from Mommy.
Mommy Tintin
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