Well anak, I don't even know where to start. Perhaps I will spare you from everything that's happening right now. It's really not fair on you. But soon I promise, I will tell you everything. It's just so hard at the moment I don't even know what to say. I didn't see this coming anak. I thought what happened to you would bring hope, but at the moment it's giving me a heart ache. But I am not giving up. I know this is but temporary. With your help and God's help, we will get through this. For now, this is all I can say:
" Grief, has dropped a bomb in your life. You are shattered, blasted, blown aprt and all but nearly destroyed. Amongst the shards, amongst the debris, you live. You don't know how. You can't see. You can do nothing but feel the pain that is within you and around you. You don't understand, you will never understand. You lay down amongst the rubble for you can do nought else and you cry, like you have never cried in your life before and you thinnk why me, why this?
And somehow without knowing how you uncurl yourself and brush yet more tears from your face and you walk. You begin to pick up a shard, a broken piece of your life here and a broken piece there. They don't fit together anymore, they can't. There is no going back to what once was. And as each tiny fragment begins to shape itself anew, so do you. Your shape is a stranger to you now and to everyone else. Your pieces have become you. They speak of your strength, of your courage and they speak of you, the vulnerable you, the broekn you, the loving you and the wonderful you."
- from the Grieving Mothers
Please anak sk Father God to guide us and to give us hope. Thank you and I love you very much no matter what. I am missing you terribly. How I wish you never left us.
Mommy Tintin
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