They had fun at the filed trip

Inang and Mama told me that they had fun at their filed trip the other day. Ading Linus missed out on Tagaytay though because he fell asleep so they left him in the bus with the Manongs. Kawawa. They were apparently waking him up but he probably was so tired to get up. So yun, he missed the fun in Tagaytay. Ading Cxyrelle rode a pony there and Mama said that she enjoyed it. Then they went to the Lucky Me factory. I'm sure you would have loved that place knowing that you loved Pancit Canton. Besides you were always curious how your favourite foods were made. I think their last stop was Enchanted Kingdom. Mama's camera didn't work until they got there so she was not able to take a lot of photos. But I took some of their friend's photo from facebook to share with you. 

This photo I took from Lucky Me's facebook page

Photo from Auntie Cynthia

Photos from Kuya CK

If you were only there Ading Linus wouldn't have slept and would have enjoyed Tagaytay more. Hay, I'm sure any school trip will never be the same without Kuya.

I love you. Missing you so much.

Mommy Tintin

Just to say goodnight

I was going to tell you a story but I am quite tired. I had this free theatre ticket from work so Daddy and I decided to watch tonight. It's only 10pm in London, but I already feel really sleepy. Mommy is getting old. Haha. I can no longer stay late unless it's my day off the following day. Besides, working 9-5, Monday to Friday is taking all my energy. I barely have enough time to do everything that I need to do, especially household chores.

I am sending you this short letter to say that I always think of you no matter how busy my day can be. I promise you, you never leave my mind. I just want to say goodnight for now my baby pogi and I shall write to you again tomorrow. Mommy loves you very much. I hope to see you in my dreams later.

Mommy Tintin

I Love You, Son

Here's a Wednesday poem for you anak :

I Love You Son

© Ambika Adhikari Tiwari

My dear son! I miss you so much

It keeps hurting, I can’t stop crying

My eyes always search for you in the sky

Heart longs for finding you in the heaven

My dear son! I love you so much

I feel so empty without you

I am so scared of my future without you

Heart longs for being around you for my safety

My dear son! You are my angel

I still feel that you are caring me from above

I tell my broken heart that you are still watching me

Heart longs for your care even from heaven

My dear son! You are my protector

I remember you when I feel lonely

I talk to you when I break into pieces

Heart longs for your support even from heaven

My dear son! I was thinking I gave you life

The reality is that you had given me life

Without you and your presence, I can’t exist

Heart longs for your company in my heart until I exist

Please be there in my heart

I Love You Son!

Source:

www.FamilyFriendPoems.com 

I love you so much and I miss you

Mommy Tintin

They're out on a field trip

I have just spoken to Inang, Mama and Ading Linus. They were getting ready for their school trip. Now you probably are wondering why Inang is going as well. Apparently, oldies are also allowed so Mama asked Inang if she wanted to go. I was actually actually surprised that she said yes because she told me that she will no longer go anywhere because you're no longer here. Maybe she feels a bit better now. I guess this is such a good idea because Inang needs a diversion. She has not been anywhere outside our town since you left apart from Olongapo. So I guess this is good for her. I spoke to her and she is really excited for this trip. She woke up very early. I was actually teasing her that she probably didn't sleep anymore because she was so excited. Oh by the way, she told me that their phone rang around 10pm and Inang wasn't able to answer it. She asked me if that was me but I didn't call her. Although it might have been Papa or someone else, I jokingly told her that it was you from heaven. I told her that you probably wanted to tell them you were going with them too. Haha. And that again brought back memories when you were still around.

Remember Inang has this "anting-anting", as Tatang would call it?Haha. What I mean is that she has a tendency to just disappear, in other words she easily gets lost. And of course you're no longer there to look after her. I remember one time when you were in Olongapo and Inang went to the toilet. She didn't go back for a while and you started worrying about her. Inang told me that you would always say, "Si Consuelo nawawala, hanapin na natin siya" as your lambing to her. And then you would go and find her. So today I told her that you will be going with them so they don't need to worry because I'm sure you will look after them. Ading Linus also promised Inang that he will look out for her. But Ading is not as mature as you. He probably will be playing with his friends when he gets there. And I really would like him and Ading Cxyrelle to have a lot of fun because this is their field trip. So I am not really expecting Ading to do the same thing as you would normally do. Maybe when he is a bit older.

Oh well, this is their second field trip without you. But don't worry Ading Linus said you're with them anyway. Please tell Father God to keep them safe on their journey. I really don't have to ask anything from you because I'm sure even if I don't ask, you will still be there for them. Thank you my baby.

Mommy loves you very much and I still hope and pray that one day I will meet someone like you. Miss you baby.

Mommy Tintin

Just one thing tonight

Anak, today I received a not so good news from back home. Don't worry no one is sick and thank God for that. But someone is going through a tough time at the moment. I know it's not directly our family, but a family is a family and no matter what happens, we will always be there for each other. I don't even know how to react to the situation, but all I can say is that life is not fair sometimes. I realized this when you left us. No matter how good of a person you are, some bad things are still bound to happen. And this is one thing that I really don't understand. Surely, there are other people worse than us who have not gone or who are not going through what we have been through. Ah here I am again. I should really stop comparing us to others. Honestly, despite losing you, we remain very blessed for having you in our lives. You were the best thing we could ever have. And to be honest with you, other people even say that we are lucky to have had you. I'm sure others are jealous as well, because it's not everyday that you get to have a child like you, almost close to perfection.

Anyway, going back to what this letter is all about. Anak, please pray for them, that they will be able to get through this challenge. I know God is still good. Please tell Father God to give them all the strength that they need to face this trial.

That's all for tonight anak. I am missing you so much and I can't wait for you to visit me. I love you so much.

Mommy Tintin

My Sunday poem for you

I just want you to know that....

Someone Is Missing

By D. Lutz 

Someone is missing from our dinner table, 

from our bedroom and our home. 

Someone is missing from holiday celebrations, 

family vacations and everywhere in between. 

Someone is missing from our lives, 

Our oldest one is gone. 

He will not have birthday parties, graduations, or celebrations. 

We will miss him throughout eternity 

and our family will never be complete. 

Someone is missing, yet we go on. 

Our lives are touched by him. 

Changed forever by his brief existence. 

His memory we keep alive. 

He lives in our hearts and minds, 

We were blessed by his short life. 

Our love for him forever strong. 

Even though...someone will always be...MISSING.

You are so deeply missed. We love you very much!

Mommy Tintin

Why do people die in different ways?

As part of my search to find solace when you left, I joined a group on facebook called the grieving mothers. And there I saw mothers who have lost a child or two in so many different ways. And then when I attended the Compassionate Friends meeting last month, I also met bereaved parents who are still grieving for their children after so many years. And I also heard different stories about how they lost their children. And this kept me asking why do people die in different ways?

Perhaps Daddy is right when he said that what happened to you could have been worse. You could been murdered like Natasha, drowned like LuisJo, killed in an accident like Kuya Mark or just didn't wake up anymore. Sometimes when I am wishing that you never left us, questions start to build up in my head. What if you didn't go and in college you get bullied by others? I ask myself this question a lot  because to me, you were a good example of a child who was more likely to be bullied because you really didn't know how to fight back. People would be hurting you and you won't say anything. You were actually lucky because although you were different from your friends, they respected you and they looked up to you. And what if people took advantage of your kindness and did something bad to you? What if you became depressed and took your own life like Ate Maningning? You know, there could have been a lot of possibilities. So these are the times when I thank God that He took you the way He did because we never saw you suffer. Well, we knew you were suffering but you just didn't show us.

This kind of makes me feel better because I don't know, for some reason this makes me believe that God really intended to take you. It was His will. I am not sure about those who were murdered or those who took their own lives though. Will God do such thing you think? I wouldn't think so but who knows. As they always say, God has his won reasons.

See, I have been having this argument with myself for a very long time now and I still can't seem to understand. My belief is that if God loves us, He should take each and everyone of us in way that we don't need to suffer and only in a good way. You know what I mean? But why do people have to suffer before they die? I mean those who are murdered or involved in accidents. Could it be because the evil is trying to build his own kingdom too? Is satan using God's people to take others' lives? I'm really confused. It would be nice if I could speak to someone about this so I can be enlightened.

Another thing that also confuses me is when people tell me that you were taken away because you were too good to be on earth. Honestly, this is also what I believe in. Some people always say that only the good ones die young, and yes I agree with them. Because among the grieving mothers I have met, none of them actually said that their children were bad. Well perhaps, some of them were in bad company but that doesn't mean that they too were bad. So thinking about this, maybe it's true that satan is also using other people to influence God's children to do bad things. And perhaps sometimes God wins and sometimes He doesn't. And that's when satan prevails.

Ha, it's rather confusing. You couldn't ask God could you anak? Please tell Him that your Mommy is confused as to why people die in different ways. I am sure he can explain it to you clearer than anyone could ever do.

Just a thought really. How I wish I was able to have a discussion about this with you. I'm sure you had an opinion on this having been so religious. This is making me miss you more but what can I do? I think I have never ever spoken to you as often as this in your lifetime. Funny isn't it? But I'm sure that even if we didn't speak that much, you knew how much I love you, right?

Mommy Tintin

Your last Foundation Day at SCMS

Well, it's that time of the year again. I have already seen photos of your classmates on your (I think) Sports day or maybe your  Foundation Day. Unfortunately, Mama only took photos of the coronation night last year. I would really love to see more photos of you on your last foundation day at your school, also my alma mater. But I'm sure you have enjoyed every second of it. I know you're very shy, but when it comes to having fun you are not really a killjoy. I'm sure it was a part of your "plan" while you were on earth. I kind of like to think that you were sent here to experience human life. It sounds like a film, but because of how mysterious you were, you really seemed like this wasn't the place you belonged. But whether you belonged here or not, I'm just grateful that I got to spend some time with you.

I managed to find a couple of photos from your previous foundation days, one two years ago I think. You were in your drum and lyre uniform with Ading Linus. This is the older photo:

2010

This one is the most recent photo. This was taken last year:

I bet your Adings miss hanging out with you like this. I noticed that whenever you were with your Adings, you were either holding Ading Cxyrelle's hand or your hand was on Ading Linus's shoulder. Ah, how I wish I could have seen more of those moments.

Well, I will miss a lot of things about you forever. And of course, I love you.

Mommy Tintin

It's time to give thanks

Well, although life has been really unfair to our family this year, I guess there are still quite a few reasons to be thankful.

First of all, I am thankful because I was able to spend 11 years of my life with you. It may have not been physically as I have been away from you for so long and only saw you once in at least two years, at least I had you in my life. And that's all that matters really. And now that you're an angel, I am still thankful that you left such a huge impact on me, our family, your friends and other people. You have no idea how much you have inspired us by just being yourself. How many people do you know who could have done that? And yes, you continue to inspire us through the person that you were, your talents and your music. Thank God for giving you to us even just for a little while. At least we were able to spend 11 years with a real angel. And thank you for in you, I realized my many dreams. I actually only realized that this afternoon and I will write about that separately. Thank you for the love that you have given us, for making us proud, for being the GOOD son that any parent would wish to have, for everything that we have learned from you, for being the BIG brother that your Adings can always look up to, for sharing your talents and your love for music and for being my inspiration. Please extend my thanks to Father God for giving you to us. Eleven years was never enough, but I can assure you that they were the best years of my life.

I am also thankful for the strength that you have given me and our family. We may not be quite the "harmonious" family that I have been praying for, but at least I know that we are still together. There have been quite a few challenges since you left, but thankfully we are managing to somehow move on with life without having too much trouble. It has been an emotional roller coaster for us but knowing that you're there for us gives us a little bit of comfort. It has not been easy at all not having you physically in our lives, but we have to live with the fact that one day we will be able to see your beautiful face again.

I thank God for keeping each and everyone of us healthy, especially your Adings. I hope and pray that He continues to keep us safe and healthy.

Of course, I am thankful that Papa and I are doing well in our respective jobs. 

You see, I am trying to look at the  brighter side of life. Losing you was too painful that sometimes even now I still feel like I have not seen the light. I know this is not true at all, but you know it feels like that sometimes. But as your Daddy Don always tells me, things could have been worse. And he's right. I know what happened to you was for your own good and I am still hoping that it's for our family too.

I miss you so much today and everyday of my life. I love you Balong.

Mommy Tintin

Scrabble

I have been playing "words with friends" on my iphone for quite sometime now and it was only last night when I remembered that you too loved playing scrabble. You know what, although I didn't carry you in my womb for nine months we still have a lot of things in common- from being meticulous to the things that we love to do. In fact, I was thinking just now that most of the things that I was hoping to do when I was a kid, you almost have done them all. And now that you're gone, perhaps one of your Adings if not both of them can carry on with our dreams, right?

There was actually a photo of you and Ading Linus playing scrabble but for some reason I couldn't find it. I will ask Mama later maybe she knows where it is. But for now, here is my message to you:

Mommy Tintin

On bestfriends

You and Aga are very lucky to have each other as best-friends. When I was growing up, I had plenty of friends but none that I would call a best friend. Yes I really never had one I think. Or maybe I just had high standards when it comes to having a bestfriend that's why I never had one. 

I am writing about best-friends because I was chatting with Aga yesterday and seems like he has not and will never replace you as his best-friend. He told me that he has been telling his classmates about you and that he has warned them that they will only be his close friends and not best-friends. Aga said that you are still his best-friend. It's quite sad you know because he has not moved on I think. I wanted to reassure him that he remains your best-friend too even if you are now in a different place and you perhaps have other angel friends up there. Yes, I'm sure Aga is still your best-friend actually. I also told him that eventually he will find a new best friend but he was very adamant that he will not replace you. And if ever he would have a new bff, it would be his second best-friend. You will always be his first best friend. Awww, he is so sweet right?

By the way, what's up with first, second or third bestfriend? I was talking to Inang the other day and apparently one of Ading Cxyrelle's friend was crying when she went to the house. The girl wanted Ading to tell her that she's her first best-friend but Ading refused because she already has three other bestfriends before her, so she will be the forth. The poor girl couldn't accept that she is only Ading's fourth bestfriend so she was in flood of tears. Inang asked Ading to just tell her that she is her first bff so she will stop crying, but Ading didn't want to lie to her. So the girl was crying until she went home. Bless her. 

Children nowadays are very different from when I was a child. A lot of things have changed.

Well, you will also always be Mama's bestfriend. 

I miss and love you so so much.

Mommy Tintin

Call me maybe

I remember the days when you were small and we used to talk over the phone. When you were a baby, Inang would give you the phone and you just mumbled incomprehensible, but very sweet-sounding words. This went on until you finally was able to say Mommy and your words became more meaningful. You actually have a photo while you were talking to me on the phone. From when you were a baby until before you left, you've always talked to me on the phone. Whenever I asked for you, you were always willing to talk. I really didn't realize that you loved the phone, until today when Mama told me a story.

When you apparently were about three years old, you randomly dialed a number. Mama can't remember how long you have been on the phone but she said that you seemed to have been enjoying your conversation with the person on the other line. You were as if really talking to someone who was entertaining to you. Out of curiosity, Mama took the phone from you and spoke to the person. She then found out that it was an old woman you were talking to. That was not the first, because after that you also have been calling Mama Es even if you knew that she just lives next door. And also, when you started grade school you often spoke to your friends on the phone. Mama told me that the most frequent friends you spoke to was Aga and Ethan.

And then few months before you left, you developed this habit of calling car dealers from the yellow pages. You were curious on how to buy a car. I really didn't see you as someone who loved cars, but for some reason you had those moments. Perhaps you just wanted the experience. I would like to think that at that time you knew you were leaving and you just wanted to know how it was to buy your own car. This is probably because you knew that you will never experience it anymore. 

I don't know how you communicate where you are now. Is there a chance that you can call me maybe? I'm sure you won't need a phone to call me. Perhaps angels have their own way of talking to their loved ones on earth. I would really love to talk to you on the phone again just like old times, just to tell you how much I love you and to hear your sweet voice once again. It would really be nice.

I miss you.

Mommy Tintin

Ading gave up :(((

Well, Ading Linus for sure has his own reasons for deciding not to play the violin at the concert anymore. Apparently for the last three days that he has been practising with Ate Glory, he was happy and so focused. But today when he finally mastered "You Raised Me Up", he broke down in tears and told Mama that he is not going to do it anymore. He didn't tell Mama why but he was sobbing apparently. Mama said that he would not stop crying. He actually excused himself from Ate Glory and then he went to Mama and cried. It's really hard to tell what's in Ading's mind because he really doesn't say anything. But Inang told me that Ading complained that his shoulder was painful and that he couldn't do it anymore.

I have mixed feelings on this whole situation. I know Ading is doing this for you. And because he knows he probably can't do it, he is kind of disappointed. I know how much he wants you to be proud of him. He probably doesn't understand that whatever happens, whether he plays the violin for you or not, you will always be proud of him like we all are. Remember when he said that he can do it too because you did it? I'm not sure. I am a bit worried about him because he may think that he has to do these things. He doesn't have you to you know? We want him to do only the things that he can do. I really feel bad about him breaking down. I would really like to know why because you see, he has also played the whole song. It may not be perfect yet, but in three days (an hour each), he managed to complete the song. And then this happens...

I told Mama to speak to Ading tomorrow because he fell asleep crying. It would be nice to know why he decided he couldn't play the violin anymore.

Anak, I know Ading needs his Kuya to be there and encourage him. I know you used to tell him na kaya niya. Now he doesn't have the Kuya that tells him that anymore. Please anak tell him that in any way you can. I'm sure he will listen to you.

By the way, I found this quote on the internet and I would like to share it with you.

http://www.flickr.com/photos/elizabethheger/5975845736/

I love you so much baby. Please be with your Adings. They need you. Missing you so much.

Mommy Tintin

Ading Linus is going to be busy

Well, Ading Linus is going to have a full schedule in the next few months by the looks of it. Apart from his violin lessons and his painting, he also wants to play table tennis. Mama is kind of worried because you were like that before. You almost didn't have any days off because you were at school from Mondays to Fridays, on Saturdays you were at MTG and then on Sundays you were at Casa San Miguel for your violin and art lessons. So I can understand why Mama is quite hesitant about Ading's plans. But Mama already asked him if he is sure about doing all those things and Ading confidently said yes. He is adamant that he can do it because you were able to do it before and in fact, although you were really busy, you were also having fun.

I just really want you to watch over Ading anak. I know if you had not left, he won't be doing all those things. He didn't even want to play the violin anymore, remember? Because he wanted to learn the piano instead. But then you left and he wanted to do it again. I'm sure you will be with him. Just please ask Papa Jesus to guide him and Ading Cxyrelle as well.

That's all for now baby. Mommy is quite sleepy na. I miss you so much and I love you.

Mommy Tintin

You Raise Me Up on violin

I didn't know that it was your dream to play Josh Groban's "You Raise Me Up" on violin. Mama only mentioned it to me today because Ading Linus has apparently chosen to play it at their school's concert this month. I was actually surprised that Ading has chosen a song that he really hasn't played on the violin before. In fact he hasn't played the violin for almost a year. But he appears to be confident because when Mama asked him if he was sure he could play the song, he said yes without hesitation. For some reason Ading Linus has gained a lot of confidence since you left us. Sometimes Mama and I get really scared because he seems to be getting into things that you started before. We are not even forcing him to do anything, but he now has the initiative to do a lot of things. We just don't want him to think that he is obliged to follow on your footsteps. I mean it would be good, but we want him to do the things that he really likes. I don't know, perhaps Ading has his own reasons for doing all that he is doing now- for you. I admire your Ading for being so sweet and thoughtful of you. I know that he really loves you. 

You will be pleased to know that Ading will be using your violin to play You Raise Me Up. He actually told Mama that it would be as if you will be the one playing on the violin because it's yours. Don't you think that's sweet? I'm sure Ading Linus will make you so proud. 

For the meantime, let me share this video with you. I'm sure you will like it.

How I wish you got to play that song on the violin. But don't worry, I'm sure you will be playing it with Ading soon. Ah, I miss you so much and I love you.

Mommy Tintin

Aga has grown fast!

I was looking at Ading Cxyrelle's birthday photos again because I thought your best-friend Aga wasn't there, but in fact I just didn't recognize him because he is taller than when I last saw him and he has gained weight. He looks kind of like you now. I was actually surprised when I saw the photos that I had to look at their photos on All Saint's Day again. Mama is hoping that he could borrow Aga from Ate Nitz for a while. It's obvious that she is missing you. I think it's good so that your Adings can have another big brother even for a while. What do you think about that? I'm sure you won't mind.

Anyway, I looked for photos of you and Aga together, but the only ones I found were taken two years ago. I'm sure Mama has other photos in the house.

During your first communion

Your Foundation Day

Your  violin recital at Casa San Miguel

Your first plane ride together

Your visit to Naga

Still in Naga for the MTG Competition

At Megan's resort

On your last birthday on earth

Your foundation day at school

And now, here's Aga:

Taken on all saint's day

On Ading Cxyrelle's 7th birthday (Aga in the one in the far left)

I keep thinking that if you only didn't leave us, I'm sure you and Aga will still be together until you probably finished college. I know you wanted to go to the same school until then. It's just a shame you will not be able to spend high school life together. But anak, I know you will watch over Aga because he was like a brother to you. 

I so miss you, but looking at your photos it feels like you really never left us. Your pictures are so full of life. I love looking at them and I love you.

Mommy Tintin

Do you remember that month of September?

After writing that letter last night, I remembered Tito Gil's vacation in September 2011. I know he has gone home at least twice since he came to England, but I don't remember him having family get together  or any photo- op before he came back. But last year it was different. Perhaps because he had a new girlfriend then, I'm not quite sure. It looks like things were really planned before you left because you saw everyone that were close to heart heart. Daddy and I went home April last year and we had most of his family members come to our house for a quick get together just before we left. Then Tito Gil's vacation. I'm sure God planned all this so that you saw him before you left us because God knows how much you two enjoyed your times together when you were a toddler- from having a joyride to courting girls! Maybe God won't allow you to go home to Him without spending time with some of the people you really care about, apart of course from our family.

So, here are some of the photos from your last September with us:

Look at you and Ading Linus. Ading has grown really fast since you left. He is really tall now and really acting like the Big Brother. You must be so proud of your little brother. Don't worry because looking at him now, I know that he will always look up to his Kuya Keith.

The photo above just proves how you were so fond of your Ading Kika. Ah, if only you were still here....

I know this is your last photo with Tito Gil. See, I told you God planned all this. I don't think you and your Adings ever had a photo with Tito. Clearly your last memory with your Tito Gil.

I will never ever get tired of telling you how much I love you and miss you, as I would when I used to speak to you over the phone. It's just that things had to change.

Mommy Tintin

Here comes the busy months

I was browsing through Mama's photos on facebook and it looks like the months of November and December were the busiest months for you in 2011. I know you were very busy all year round because of your violin and art lessons and the MTG months before that, but in the last two months of your stay on earth it seems like you did quite a lot with our family .

By this time, you probably would have been busy practising for your foundation day. And then it would soon be your christmas party. Time really flies.

Looking at your photos, you seemed to be very happy apart from of course your usual "i-don't-want to show-my-dimples" moments where you just frowned. I know you hated cameras. But we loved taking photos of you because you have such a lovely face anak ko. And I so miss pinching those chubby cheeks so much.

I am trying to figure out if there are any signs from those photos that would tell me about your plan to leave. Well, it was not exactly your plan but I just want to know if you knew you were leaving, and sometimes the series of events may actually say something. I know they were just ordinary events but who knows, I may find a hint. I guess I am just missing you so much at the moment that's why I am like this again- searching for clues and answers.

It's getting closer and closer to the day when you left us. I don't know how it's going to be like for me because I'm sure I will be on my own that day because Daddy will be working. It's even hard to just think about it. 

Hayyy, I miss your beautiful face. I love you so much.

Mommy Tintin

Ading Cxyrelle's Birthday Party

Mama has finally posted the photos from Ading's birthday party. I didn't realize that it was that big. I knew there were seven gifts, balloons, pillows, prayers etc but I was not expecting that there would be a lot of people. I don't know but everytime there is a party at the house, a lot of people always turn up, invited or not invited. Not that we mind, but people know we're not rich, and yet people love coming to our house. I am not sure if this is something that we should be proud of or not. Perhaps it is because we can always say that people love us not for what the material things that we have. I remember when you left, a lot of people came to volunteer. We didn't even have to ask for their help. They just turned up and did whatever they could to help the family. Our family is very lucky indeed to be surrounded by those people who are always willing to help us despite not having that much to give.

Anyway, looks like everyone had fun on Ading's birthday. Tita Babang did Ading's hair and make up.

Can you see how much she's having fun having her hair done? You know her very well right? Ading Kika is maarte as you would have always told her.

Tito Roman was in cahrge of the decoration as I have told you and Tita Gina was the emcee. Tita Joy was also there to give them a helping hand.

Inang told me that she couldn't but cry when Ading Linus and Ading Cxyrelle made their way to the "stage". You probably know why. She remembered that originally, you were Ading's escort because Ading Linus was shy and didn't want to do it. Seeing them together obviously reminded her of you. And yes, people mentioned your name. They would definitely have been happier if you were there. But I'm sure Ading Linus have done you proud because he is not shy anymore. He actually told Papa that he is now "bravo" unlike before he was kind of scared of people. 

Inang, Tatang, Auntie Maria, Daddy and Mama Es all gave their birthday wishes to Ading. You probably will be glad to know that Ading and Tatang actually danced. How I wish he was like that to you and your Adings from the beginning. But never mind, it's never too late. Well, too late for you but I am sure you will be happy just the same.

Ading Linus was so handsome in his pink shirt. Who would have thought that he could pull it off that well? You probably wouldn't have been keen on wearing pink, but I'm sure you would have looked good on it too.

I'm so sad that they were not able to spend Ading's birthday with you Kuya. And it's just a shame that you will not be able to see Ading Cxyrelle grow up. But as I have always said, I'm definitely sure that you will always be there for them.

We love and miss you so much and times like this will always be incomplete because you're not here.

Mommy Tintin

A Sunday poem for you...

I will always love and miss you so much.

Mommy Tintin

Ading's birthday party was a success!

I have seen some of the photos form Ading's 7th birthday party today but they were not from Mama. I was embarrassed to just take it from Auntie Miles so I will post the photos as soon as I receive them from Mama.

I'm sure you were there with your Angel friends and saw everything. Ading Cxyrelle was so beautiful and Ading Linus was so handsome. Sayang you were not there physically. It would have been three beautiful children from our humble family.

It appears to me that your Adings had fun. Ading Cxyrelle was very hands on in planning the whole party so I'm sure she got what she wanted. Her party was a Hello Kitty theme and although she didn't have the Hello Kitty gown that she wanted, at least she wore what she designed. Eversince Ading has been designing her own gowns. Not that she draws I don't think, but she tells whoever makes her gowns exactly how she wants them to be. So I'm sure she was happy with the her gowns.

I can't wait to hear from Mama so she can tell me everything that happened during the party. We still have not managed to talk because they were very busy and they had visitors until late. I will try and speak to them tomorrow and will let you know okay? I'm sure you and your angel friends also enjoyed the fun but perhaps you couldn't stay long because I know you're very busy in heaven, singing praises to the Lord and doing angelic tasks. 

I know that you were missed today at the party, not only by our family but by everyone who were there. You probably don't know but you have left an important mark in those people's lives and you will always be remembered by them. I'm sure when I speak to Mama, she will definitely tell me that at least one or two people have mentioned your name during the party.

Hay, it is so sad that you didn't get to dance with Ading on her 7th birthday. But I know that you watched over her and Ading Linus the whole time. 

I miss you so much baby. Mommy loves you.

Mommy Tintin